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Tuesday, October 24th, 2006
6:53 pm	karma has this way of kicking people in the ass... okay, i will make this short because we are having a sweet ass party at the townhouse in a few minutes, but i just wanted everyone to not worry about me (not that anyone has been POSTING!!!). so today we played the semifinals of the WHAC tournament, which we have won for the past 6 years. and we lost. really, because of bad coaching. karma sucks, haha. we have also won the conference for the past 6 years, and we didn't win that either. so the season is officially over. and the coach is a total wanker. and tomorrow i am walking into my athletic director's office and asking for my release. i'm sad that i'm leaving my roommates, rachaelle and tracy. but it is time for me to move on. more later! oh yeah, coming home on thursday!!! *cough* kim call me *cough* (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 14th, 2006
8:44 am	a lil get together hey guys, i know i haven't posted in forever, but my computer at home doesn't really like livejournal or facebook or myspace, so i'm a bit out of luck. anyway, i'm having a lil get together on the 19th of may. it starts at about 6 pm, there will be food, i repeat, there will be food. it's pretty much a last time to see our beloved jennie!! tell everyone you know and see about it! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
7:30 pm	You can't hate me for not posting!! Hey guys, sorry it's been so long. I was in Mexico last week, in case anyone didn't know. You would think it would have been paradise, right? The first day I worked out with my dad for quite some time, it was really great. The second day was even better, we played soccer tennis, which I love. The third day I we worked out really hard and I was starving. So we went into Mazatlan to do some shopping and get some food. We went to a place that was recommended by the resort. I ordered Marlin Tacos because the seafood in Mazatland is sopossed to be the best. But the tacos smelled a little funny but I was really hungry so I ate them anyway. Bad idea. That night I felt really sick, but I didn't really think anything of it. The next day I felt really sick and we were going on a boat ride to go fishing. yuck. i felt aweful all day long and then for the next four day. I couldn't eat, I couldn't drink, and I couldn't move. I slept around 16 hours a day. But at least I got to sleep by the pool. It really sucked, ya know! I lost quite a bit of weight, which was really bad because the people training me told me I couldn't lose any more weight. So now I'm kind of screwed. I have a semi-pro soccer try out on the 22nd and I can barely workout. I worked out twice today and apparently didn't eat enough during the day. I was caught up doing homework so I pushed dinner back. I was taking a shower, I like to be clean before I eat, and I started to feel dizzy and shaky. I got out of the shower and started to get stuff around for dinner. But my hands were shaking really, really bad. I couldn't see straight and my head felt really dizzy. I grabbed a granola bar and some goldfish and was shakily trying to eat them while waiting for dinner. Don't worry, I survivied. I called my dad up and told him and he said I should drink a protein shake in the morning and try to eat more food. I was already on the edge before mexico, but i lost too much weight in a matter of days and now my body fluid and electrolyte balances are all messed up. It really sucks. And the worst part about tonight was that I was home alone, so if I had passed out no one would have known until rach got home from class at 10 pm! How do I get myself into these situations? (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
3:19 pm	Spring Break!!! Okay lovelies. Here is the idea for Spring Break. I was thinking probably Tuesday. I do believe that kim leaves on wednesday, and i was pretty sure that shandra would be done with whatever she was doing by then. we can go to either alpine valley or to mt holly. the cost for either would be a little under $30 dollars. now here is where the next part comes in. you guys (kim and shandra) need to decide whether you want to ski or snowboard. renting snowboards will cost more money, probably around 20 dollars. i might have enough skiis for you guys. but, we can't have some on snowboard and some on skiis, cuz teaching that way doesn't really work. if you want to learn how to snowboard, i can teach you some of the basics. i'm not that fabulous, but i can get down the hill without falling and i can turn on both edges. alright, comment back to this and tell me what you decide. oh, and lunch. we can either buy (5 to 10 dollars) or we can pack lunch. your choice! so you have to comment back on a few things: does tuesday work? location: alpine or holly skis or snowboard lunch: pack or buy kisses! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
6:25 pm	be happy! Since everyone seems to be in such a bad mood lately, I am taking it as my duty to write a happy post! Okay, so, I found out that when you read the text book it actually helps out... a lot. see, i had been lulled into a false sense of security about a certain teacher because his biology class last semester was a snooze fest. but his anatomy class this semester is hard core! so i read the chapter that we went over today, and, by god! i understood it all! amazing thing, really. but don't worry, my flow of amazing realizations does not end at this miracle, oh no! i've been resting my quad for the past two weeks. and now it feel absolutely fabulous! i have the green light with a yellow tinge to start playing again. after being injured for months, being able to play at almost full strength is a wonderful, amazing thing. it's sad to say, because it makes me sound even more obssessed with soccer, but not playing was like losing a part of myself. soccer is what i do. it's a huge part of who i am and influences a number of the decisions i make. and now i have most of that back. and i just want to celebrate! come spring break, i will be playing 24/7. i think in the past i have taken advantage of being able to run and play soccer. i just didn't stop and enjoy every moment of soccer that i could play, instead i was too busy ragging on myself for little flaws, which spiraled and made me mess up even more because i was so upset about the last pass. and you know what else makes me happy? those people who flash into your life for a brief moment, but in that moment do something special. like after i was at the court house crying for two hours my dad and i went to the grocery store. and at the register, there was this woman who was listening to my dad and i talking about how bitchy my mom had been. and she jumped into the conversation and made these comments that had me laughing when i hadn't been able to laugh all day. my sides and my abs were actually in pain. and when i think about it, that is so special. she doesn't even know what i had been through, but she helped me out so much and she doesn't even know it. i'm just glad that there are people like that. so that is about it for me... i have to go disect a minky (translation: mink) in about half an hour. and then... oh and then... i have soccer practice! just straight up scrimmaging for an hour plus. it may be late at night, i may have to wake up six hours after i go to sleep, but it is so totally worth it. be happy!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
2:50 am	Two hours in a court room later... Before I explain my title... god, it sounds like it has been a rough time for everyone. I think that everyone is ready for spring break? i sure as hell am. side note: shandra and kim, if kim is going somewhere at the end of the week it would be a bit difficult to head up to shanty creek. so if that doesn't work out, would you like to take a day trip to either mt holly or alpine valley? and what is your poison: skis or snowboard? anyway, so it looks like things have been a bit difficult. well, i'm not gonna lie. i wish i could trade spots with any of you guys. on friday i spent two hours in a court room in tears, waiting. first i had to drive to the courtroom and find the stupid personal protection order office. and then the women in there were bitches. i wanted to slap them. they turned me away because i arrived at 4:03 and they have to start the paperwork at 4:00. so i started to leave and i called my dad to say what happened. my dad was really annoyed, so he called the secretary of the judge he is friends with to see if she could help me out any. she gladly said she would, apparently this has happened more than once, and she walked down with me to make them start the paperwork. turns out the paperwork can really be done in about 30 minutes. then i had to go down to the clerks office where i had to wait for another 20 minutes just to have my stupid papers stamped. then i walked up to the judge office thingies and gave them my papers. then i had to wait for about an hour out in the hall by myself. i was crying almost the entire time. one of the women who worked in one of the judges's offices stopped to check on me to see if i was okay. then the judge came out to ask me a few questions, i answered, and he promised to have the paperwork ready for me before i leave. his secretary came out a bit later to explain the paperwork and what i have to do now. my dad called and asked if i was done because he was done with work. he drove over and told me to wait in the courtroom because it was starting to get dark and he didn't want me to walk back to my car alone. so i went to the bathroom and cried in the stall for a little bit, then bought some animal crackers and waited for my dad. when he got there we drove to my car and then i followed him to the grocery store. it was really upsetting. it is so hard to think that someone who i loved and shared everything with is now being really terrible. it's so hard, giving someone everything and then having to, in a way, run away from them. i've been easily upset lately, a bit on the emotional side. i just want it to be over, i just want him to go away so i can move on. i really wish i could relive my senior year. i wish i could have done things differently. shoulda, woulda, coulda. i'm really looking forward to seeing you guys again, i miss you!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 16th, 2006
11:29 am	A big step... So today I filed a police report. i was so nervous, i don't really know why i was nervous. it's not like i did anything wrong. okay, don't panic. but you probably are wondering why i filed a police report. well, last night jared called me. i didn't answer my phone because i was at soccer practice. he didn't even call from his number, it was one of his friend's phones. but he left... i don't even know how to describe the message he left. he told me that i fucking sucked, that i was hopeless, that my life would end suddenly and abruptly at a young age, that he wished i was dead, and ended with fuck you bitch. i didn't really know what to do, so i just ignored it like i usually do. but i was, understandably, really upset this morning while i was working out. that followed me into my first class and after class i went to my chemistry professor to tell him i would be absent on monday. he asked if i was stressed and i said that i was. i was stressed about a couple of things, but we ended up on the topic of jared. we talked abotu the message he left. my professor (ted) was really upset. he said that wasn't right and that i shouldn't be treated like that. he also suggested that i take legal action. another woman stopped in for a little bit and talked about what her son had gone through with his ex-girlfriend because it was very similar to what i was going through. so i left ted's office and called my dad and told him what happened and that i wanted a personal protection order. he suggested that i file a police report and my dad is talking to an attorney and a judge for some advice. it's just really really hard. i spent so long with him and there were some good times. the fact that it has now come down to this is really painful. why did it have to be like this? obviously this is the last thing that i wanted. but i don't know what else to do. i want to be rid of jared, but he calls and makes me miserable. he really upsets me with what he says and i don't have any options left. i want him to leave me alone so i can go on with my life and be all happy-like. anyway, i'll be home for a whole week for the first week of march, so you guys better come and see me! love you guys! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 12th, 2006
10:23 pm	Fucking Olympics Fucking fuck ups. Okay, this is officially the worst olympics ever. fucking Bode Miller gets all this fucking hype and then he fucking sucks it up at the fucking olympics! fucking 5th fucking place! yes, i like the word fuck! and then, oh and then! daron rahlves sucks it up too! he gets 10th place! but bode miller takes the cake! he was out until midnight the night before his race at a fucking bar. you are a fucking high performance athlete and you fucking fuck with you fucking body! and then fucking daron fucking switches skis seconds before the fucking race! ahhhhh!!! then speed skating comes on and i'm happy because i can watch super hot apolo do well, he won the gold medal and all last year, right? well, fucking apolo. he is comfortably in second, seconds away from qualifying for the finals, and he fucks up. he decides to try for first fucking place and he fucking falls. he fucking falls!!! it is fucking pathetic when a racer, me, has to count on a fucking snowboarder to win a gold medal for the race. but guess what? sean white is another fuck up! of course he is, he's a fucking knuckle dragger! he didn't do well on his first run and it took him a second run to fucking qualify for the fucking finals! i fucking fucking fucking hate the winter olympics!!! sorry. very angry at the moment. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
6:35 pm	okay, confession... okay, here is my confession. i'm feeling really sorry for myself and really depressed right now. my first tough is finally getting better because i have been working my ass off. but my quad have been bugging me lately, so i went to triad to see what was wrong with me. i talked to kirk, the main guy there, and he said that i pulled the main quad muscle and that i'm not allowed to scrimmage to at least two weeks. then i get an email that says that we are scrimmaging eastern michigan on the 17th. but my family is leaving for a ski trip in canada on the 16th. so it just really sucks. and we have games on the 18th of march and i have to be ready for those games, at least. and then there are guys. why do guys suck? why do i always end up hanging out with the guys who don't call back and who don't really care? why don't they ever call back? why do i always want to rush things? maybe i'm not pretty, maybe guys think i weigh too much. maybe they just think i'm a weirdo. looking back at my relationship history, i haven't had any good relationships. ever. they have all pretty much sucked. and except for one exception, i have been fucked over by a guy every time. well, the pizzas here, so i gotta go. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
12:28 pm	I don't really have a title... I'm waiting for my next class to start and i am delaying doing homework, so i thought posting would be a perfect excuse! anyway, thank god it got cold again! we were actually able to race last night, and i was very happy because yesterday started out as one of thsoe terrible days. class was super boring, i had to wake up really early, jared called and we got into a big fight. yeah, that hasn't happened in a while, i actually started crying because every once in a while i think about what it could have been, but the fact that he never put effort into our relationship ends any thoughts of anything good happening. that happened while i was in the car on the way to alpine and i couldn't get a hold of pat so that we could hang out. so i was in a really shitty mood and ready to knock into some wood poles and take out my, aggresion. then i met pat at the ski hill when he got there and he apologized for not answering, he was asleep... guys, bleh. and he asked me how i was and i said i was in a shitty mood. so he set about getting me in a better mood. and he actually succeeded. we both had really good races so we decided to go to the bar and hang out for a little bit. after they anounced the standings and all that jazz from the race we went to applebees. we had queso dip and chips, motzarella sticks, and boneless buffolo wings. i was in a much better mood by this time. we actually had some really good conversation and shared some intimate stuff. then we had a triple chocolate meltdown cake thinging for dessert. it was an amazing night. and he stayed out late with me even though he had to study for a test, he assured me that he would be fine, he would just pull an all-nighter. i'm really kind of scared though, i like pat a lot, i think he is really cool and i have a crush on him for sure. but we haven't kissed yet, kinda waiting for the right moment. hopefully that happens soon. but then again, maybe not. i really like the relationship that we have right now and i don't want to do anything to mess that up. i want to have a friendship with him first so that if the relationship doesn't work, then at least i made a friend out of it. and he is obviously a very good friend. he has also confided in me that he would like to jump me. his words exactly. hehe. alright, well i should go to class now... boo. i don't want to go. i think i'm going to skip my class from 5-7. i think instead i will go home and eat dinner. otherwise i am spending the entire day at madonna. boo. i can't wait for this week to be over, my family and i a re going skiing this weekend and it's going to be sweet. i'm going to eat a lot of food. apparently i have been working out too much and not eating enough, i dropped like 15 pounds since soccer season! oh well, my dad says it might have been baby fat. i'm a chubby baby!! hehe. okay, sorry, just ignore my insanity and procrastination. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! (Comment on this)
Monday, January 30th, 2006
4:10 pm	Boo! Okay, sorry, I'm really bored today because class only lasted an hour and then I went to Triad to workout with some of my friends from my soccer team. That went for like two hours and then rachaelle and i went tanning. we got home around 3 and made some lunch (we had chicken pitas) and now i have nothing to do. usually i have race training on monday nights, but with the warming temperatures the ski hill closed. that super sucks. but anyway, this weekend i was going to get a tattoo, but i might have chickened out. like i want to get it, i want a soccer ball on my ankle. i want it because no matter what happens, no matter how stressful or bad my life gets, i have have soccer. soccer is a constant companion. but it's also something that is permanent. so i have some more thinking to do. i also told my dad about it and he asked that i think about it. so the other thing i did over the weekend was bleach my hair. i want to dye it red, but first i have to lighten it to get the red tone that i want. but my hair was already a little on the dark side, so my hair turned out orange. hehe. my dad called me an orangehead. so that's about all that is up with my, i'm going skiing this weekend (sorry kimmie) but hopefully i will see you guys soon!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 26th, 2006
11:13 am	Beep Test: Explanation Okay, Shandra made me realize that I haven't told you guys how wonderful the beep test is! You're in the gym and there is a line of cone only a little bit away from the other end of the court. you run from one end of the court to the other. The reason it is called the beep test? You have to hit the line when the cd goes "beep". So you run, it beeps, you run, it beeps, you run, it beeps, you run, it beeps. You run back and forth between 5 and 7 times for each level. As you reach higher levels, the beeps get gradually faster. Beep. Beep. Beep. Over and over and over again. So you know how I was all psyched out? I ended up getting to level 12, which is the level our coach wanted us at during the season. I actually did better this time than during the season because I have been working and getting ready, and I got the highest score! Yay! Okay, well I have to go, I'll talk to you later! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
8:33 pm	Beep Test!! Hello everyone! I'm going to be a happy person today, otherwise I will not do well on the beep test! this is going to be my new outlook on life, just take everything with an upbeat attitude. So here is some good news... I will be home on the weekends from now on because I will be doing 1 v 1 training! Isn't that exciting!? MSU's assistant coach Stacy Hellar has agreed to train me 1 v 1 on Sundays. It's going to be really sweet, I had one training session already and it was so much fun! we played in a raquet ball court, and i get to do this every weekend! In other happy news... I'm also doing speed and agility training with Marvin Alexander. he's british. But it's going to be so sweet, and a lot of fun. I'm sorry Jennie, I'm really trying to post and update you guy, but the truth is I'm trying to mentally prepare myself for the beep test tonight. i'm a little nervous, i want to do well. i haven't run in a while, but i've been playing a lot of soccer and working out at least four times a week. so it won't be bad. and i'm going to dominate the beep test! yay! oh yeah, i'm sure you all want to know about pat... well hopefully we are going to hang out tomorrow. you never know, he might have to train and i have to do a lot of running around. and i have homework. boo homework. but we went out to dinner on monday, he bought, and it was adorable. we get along so well. then after dinner we talked on the phone for like half an hour about whatever came to mind. it's like this nwe concept to me... guys can be nice. weird. i've talked to jared a few times, but it's just so pointless. the other day i talked to him for like two minutes on my way to soccer practice. he was like 'what are you doing?' and i said 'going to soccer practice'. And he said 'that's stupid' and I replied 'what, that i go to soccer practice and i want to achieve something? like getting better at soccer?' and he said 'yeah, that and all the stupid shit you do' and then he hung up on me. wow. anger issues anyone? personally, i think the whole situation is laughable. i don't really like talking to him because it's stressful and laughable because he always hangs up on me. way to be grown up. anyway, back to pat... he is so nice! oh, and he calls me 'hun'. isn't that adorable?! don't answer and please resist throwing up. okay, well i have to go get changed and start meditating so that i can do well on the beep test. yay for the beep test!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 15th, 2006
7:04 pm	sorry, i was bored You Are Most Like Carrie! You're quirky, flirty, and every guy's perfect first date. But can the guy in question live up to your romantic ideal? It's tough for you to find the right match - you're more than a little picky. Never fear... You've got a great group of friends and a great closet of clothes, no matter what! Romantic prediction: You'll fall for someone this year... Totally different from any guy you've dated. Which Sex and the City Vixen Are You? Your Scent is Key Lime Sassy, real, and totally smooth You're a total flirt who's always ready for a challenge! What Scent Are You? You Should Date An Italian! You love for old fashioned romance, with an old fashioned guy An Italian guy is the perfect candidate to be your prince charming If your head doesn't spin enough, just down another espresso with him Invest in a motorcycle helmet - and some carb blocker for all that pasta! Which Foreign Guy Should You Date? You Are Uptown You are classy, cultured, and well educated. You are an expert on the finer things in live. Your city girl persona loves all of the opportunities a city offers. But only in the best neighborhoods. Are You Uptown or Downtown? Your Passion is Purple! You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve. If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through. But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack. You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart. What Color is Your Passion? Your Inner Muse is Thalia You are most like this playful muse of comedy. Life is all about laughter to you, and you're a natural comic. You make people laugh until their sides split. And you're always up for some play time! What Muse Are You? Your Reputation Is: Sweet Girl While you're well known, there's nothing to worry about. You're reputation is mostly good - as good as any rep can be. What's Your Reputation? You Are Boyish Sexy You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football... Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox. You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness. What Kind of Sexy Are You? You Are Spring! Hopeful Playful Sweet Fresh Airy What Season Are You? You Are Psyche! Eternally in search of purpose and insight. You're curious and creative with a total sense of wonder. Totally empathetic, you pick up on other's moods easily. Just be sure to pamper yourself as well! What Goddess Are You? You Are Buffy the Vampire Slayer "We saved the world. I say we have to party." What Superheroine Are You? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
9:02 pm	Moving On... Okay, lovelies, bet you want to know about the title, yeah? Well, you're gonna flip when you hear this story. Well, maybe not flip, but it is a pretty good little story, if I do say so myself. So remember how I drove out on Wednesday, last week, to see Jared and sort this whole mess of a relationship out? Well, then Jared blew me off. So I had my phone turned off all weekend when I went to the UP. Then I turned my phone on and Jared had called. So I decided to call him back, andhe asked when I would be in Livonia again. I told him Monday. Then, to make matters worse, I was driving to Livonia early on Monday when I recieved a text message from him. Exact words "I miss you". I told him I didn't believe him. He said "fuck it then". So I said I was sorry for being rude, and he said he would call me when he got out of work. Well, we all know that I have race training on Monday. When 5:00 rolled around and he still hadn't called me, I decided I should just head out there. He ended up calling at almost 6 pm. And he hung up on me 5 times because I was "blowing him off" to go racing. Jackass. Well, I was sitting at the table trying to get dressed when I met the instructors. My mom is friends with some of the instructors, so they were really nice to me. Next, I met a guy named Patrick. He was very nice, we were the only college age students in the entire group. We rode the lift up together like everytime. At the end, I asked him what he was doing after, and he took me out for dinner. Adorable, yeah? Then, after racing last night, we went out again. Only for a little bit because I had a soccer game at 10:30 pm. But we are super adorable and we will be haning out tomorrow after I am done with class. He is so nice! And he graduated from high school, he's a junior in college. His friends are just like you guys, super smart and going to schools like U of M. I was so shocked, he is as motivated as I am. I can't belive my luck, it almost seems too good to be true. So I'm pretty much ignoring Jared, but not on purpose. Here's my schedule. Monday: Chem 9-12 (all my 9-12 classes are at Orchard lake so I have to get up at 7) Then I work out, then head to Alpine for racing training from 6:30 to 8:30 Tuesday: Bio 9-12 Math 1-3 Racing at Alpine Soccer at 10:30 Wedneday: Chem 9-12 History 1-4 A and P 5-7 A and P 7-9 Soccer 10-11:30 Thursday: Bio 9-12 Math 1-3 Yeah, I don't really know when I sleep. I live on like 6 hours of sleep. But I love it! Anyway, I hope to see you guys (Shandra and Kim) this weekend. Who wants to go to the pawn shop and sell the necklace with me?! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 6th, 2006
5:17 pm	HEY!!!! Okay, okay, okay, I know I haven't written in forever. So, I thought, especially after that display in the mall, I owed you all an update. Okay, so, Jared and I: haven't talked in like two days. And I really don't plan on talking to him. Reason: I drove all the way out to Livonia on Wednesday night so that we could figure things out. Well, I called him when I left. And then I called him when I got there. Surprise! He answered the phone and was already on his way home, he hadn't bothered to call me after he got out of work. And guess who was driving his car. A girl. Whether or not he has relations with this girl, well personally I don't really give a fuck because he isn't my problem anymore. Thank god. I asked if I could drive over to his house so we could talk. Oh no, he said that wasn't a good idea. Could we meet up later? Yeah, sure, he would call me at 9. 9 rolled around and I didn't hear anything from him, even though I had called him twice. When 10 finally came I decided to go home. It is so weird, he had invited me to go on a ski trip with him when we had spoken earlier. I was so excited, I took it as a sign that everything was great. But it's not. Why am I so quick to forgive him? I'm not really sure. It's actually quite stupid. As I was driving home I started crying. Two tears, that was it. Then I looked in the mirror and asked myself why I was crying. He wasn't worth my tears. He isn't worth my sad feelings. I'm actually happy that we are done. Why? Because I don't have to sit by the phone and worry about why he isn't calling. I don't have to wonder if I'm good enough for him, even though I obviously am, because he always makes me feel like I'm not good enough. How he does it, I don't know. I don't have to feel sad abotu what he says, I don't have to feel stressed out because I hear girls in the background. That is over with. And I'm so happy! The only problem I have left is what to do with the necklace. It is the 'circle of love', well I don't want that around me. I'm between selling it on ebay, or tucking it away in my closet, finding it twenty years from now, and laughing with my gorgeous husband about when I dated that obnoxious high school dropout. Tell me what you think. Anyway, I am so looking forward to talking to Mohammad!! My nickname for him is Speedy, he is really fast on the soccer field! Apparently, the guys at soccer zone said he was looking for me when I wasn't there last time. Oooooooh, hehe. SO i decided to start my own word to reach him, that I'm looking for him and wondering what his number is. I probably won't see him until drop in on the 20th, but I can wait. Plus, with 18 semester hours, there has got to be at least one hot, smart, nice guys in my class! It is a bright new future, and I am feeling really happy! Oh, and other good news, I actually have a story idea! I haven't had an idea for a book in like 5 months, and this one has come to me and is sticking really well, so I'm running with it. Gotta love it! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, December 16th, 2005
7:44 am	just thinking.... i was just thinking about another present... really sweet looking puzzels. i like puzzels and i haven't done one in like forever. okies, see ya tomorrow!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 15th, 2005
8:38 pm	ooooooooh so i'm really tired right now, so please ignore any mistakes. i've been sick going on two and a half weeks now. so i feel pretty crappy. yay. not really. i have a doctors appointment on monday, another mono test and some other stuff. need to find out what is wrong with me. anyway, for my birthday... any dvds are good, no scary ones cuz i hate scary movies. i like books, anything interesting. especially dieting and excerise, like weight lifting, books. ummmm i don't really know. cute shirts? alright, well i have to look stuff up online now, so i'll talk to you later. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 9th, 2005
9:50 am	Ummmm Okay, Kim, I'm not gonna lie. I kinda feel like you are avoiding me right now. Like a month ago you complained because I didn't tell you when I cam home or I was too tired to do stuff. But now everytime I come home I call you, both your house and your cell phone. But you never call me back. Once I did get a hold of you and you told me you would probably be busy all weekend, but you would call me when you were free. But you never call and then you go hang out with Justin. I understand that you want to hang out with Justin, but I haven't seen you in forever. Then I call and ask if you want to go clubbing. And on the phone you are all about it, and you told me you would find a place for us to go. But you never called me. I called you twice and you never called back. I didn't talk to you until Sunday night to find you that you pretty much blew me off all weekend. I know that you have a ton of people you want to hang out with, but I kind of fancied myself as your best friend. I just wish that when I came home you would at least call me back. Like right now I don't know if you still want to have a party next weekend. I don't even know if you have invited anyone or who plans on coming. You've been around our friends more so I don't know how many people you have told or if you are even going to come to the party. Anyway, I'm home for this weekend, I made some plans because I know that you probably won't call, but I do have a lot of free time. I would like to hang out with you, I miss you! I just wish you would stop avoiding me. Give me a call sometime, maybe we can plan for the party next weekend. I'm not really sure what you want to go on, I've been making all the plans. Alright, hopefully I'll talk to you later. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
7:08 pm	Thank you Shandra I just wanted to say that that is the best advice anyone has given me. Well, people have said things along thesame lines, but I think what you said was very clear cut and very good. In all actuality, that is what I was leaning toward myself. I really do see that he is trying to do good things with his life, and I know that he has done them for himself. He didn't do all these things when I said he should because he wanted to do them for himself. And after thinking long and hard about our past relationship, I think I was a littl incapable of forgiving. I really do want to give this another try, and I think friendship is a good idea. If that go well, then maybe dating. If that goes well, after a few months, then maybe we can be boyfriend/girlfriend. I don't know why I was so afraid of my family and my friends disliking me because of my choice. I think I would regret it if I didn't give him another chance. (Comment on this)